It begins

I was a little shy i must admit to publish my earlier post but then if i can help someone understand whats its like or reassure someone why not!I had initially decided i would publish everything when it was all over but what the hell!! The internet becomes your best friend during these times and you are googling every symptom, every possibility. Anyway it all began today with  an unusually painful ultrasound. Anyway after all the medical probing and injection jabs with a doggybag of more injections i went back to work. I have no idea what lays ahead. B* very sweetly suggested after the insane amount of times i crib that women do everything.. that for every jab i did he would prick himself too. I would never let him do that but thankful and touched he thought of that. I am in the process of figuring how to manage stuff at work and hopefully i will get to it
Next visit Saturday 24th, hope everything is Ok. Let the jabbing continue

2 weeks pre IVF - 10th Jan 2015

10th Jan

I was all set to do another round of IUI until i got the phone call. Based on our diagnosis the doctors felt we should go straight to IVF. I was a litle taken aback. All along, i had hoped ... please let me never reach the stage of IVF. But then the inevitable happened. I dont think there is a way to prepare  yourself for these things. What you tend to do is read the scores of information on the web, stalk community forums, get scared and then do the same thing all over again. Ive been there and have been doing that... but i dont want to any an ything any more. As Tasneem (i think  in many ways she was sent for me) told me our questions shuold be directed to the doctor and not the internet and thats what I'm going to do. Meanwhile i am back to yoga with a renewed sense of vigor and hope.A lady who i respect a lot and admire in the professional world called me up yesterday so that i would hear whatever she had to say first from her.She's extremely senior and  I am quite a small fry compared to her but my respect for her doubled after  she called.There  are still great people in the world!

The New Year.. the New Me??

Wow! its ironic to realise that the last post was a year and 2 days ago. What is it with New Years and how it makes you reflect on the year gone by!Ive been contemplating writing for a while.So let me do away with the perfunctory reflection of 2014 away!Ive had a decent year.Worked at the same place for 2 years now which if you know me is something!Revisited turkey,finally went to Mood I (the college kid  in me screams yeaah!) but i think it was the year when i realised i am damn it 33!It was my health that made me question it. I can visit all the countries in the world,attend college festivals but a certain condition i was not aware of was brought to my notice which made me realise I am old and there is no 2 ways about it

Its a  little discomforting,a tad terrifying to wake up to the reality. Earlier i would also say i was 'around 30' . Or if someone asked me' are you 30' .. I would shrug and say Yup,sorta...

Now its different. Well the good news is I am doing yoga and conscious about what i eat and nutrition.
On the other hand,I am going through some personal tough times that i didn't think i would go through.It makes you revaluate your life and what you are doing and how you are spending it.The only resolution i have this year is to meditate, shut the noise out and connect with myself. I do hope i can overcome this