An update on the Future

Well.. its been a few days and i felt like i was waiting for the results of my board exam or CAT! I was cautiously optimistic. We retrieved 9 eggs and 3 of them made embryos which is good, since some of them made great quality embryos, not so good since we hoped for more...
So the long and short story is that i will do another egg retreival cycle...but on a slightly different protocol..something which is called Mini IVF or IVF lite. Its supposed to more tablets and  very few injections (this was the part that convinced me to do it). Its a protocol usually followed by people who have diminished ovarian reserve. I am now on a break from all the jabs,digging,scans etc.... And enjoying it

M, B & I had a lovely lunch at Yautcha!We were excited to spot celebrities (andheri east dwellers get excited at this sorta thing) but more than that it was nicve to see M talk about other things than her little one! It was nice to see her get excited about the food and for once it seemed like it was like the good old days of Singapore.I am slowly getting back to my excercise regime.. Though laziness gets the better of me and hopefully will lose the weight soon that i think ( injections and hormones) made me fatter (though in reality it may just be all the junk food!)

I intend to enjoy this weekend too and got reservations for B and I at 2 places Ive been wanting to try out. Sunday is India vs Pak and i want B to spend it with the boys. I think he's been taking it harder than me.And i see him worried and stressed out a lot (Elegantization effect). I shouldn't be presumptuous but i think Ive handled it decently so far. If course i have my down days but i think i just count my blessings that we've gotten this far. Like i tell B , we've got a fabulous team who i trust implicitly so i think its a matter of time.We need to stay positive and visualise and it WILL happen!!

'The 'pick up'

For most people, a pick up alludes to the end of a romantic evening of 2 people interested in each other maybe just for a night or who knows what could happen technically.It could move on to be something beautiful. In  the IVF world a pick up is more of a colloquial way of calling the egg retrieval. Somehow pick up makes it seems less technical. Sort of picking up someone and dropping them of at the airport. Here its the eggs being picked up and taken to the lab and  then mixing  them up sperm to form beautiful sperms. 
I was given strict instructions,nothing by mouth after 12 pm till after the procedure. At 8 30 i was at the clinic where Reshma and Sujatha whisked me away to change into my gown and finish all the paperwork. Sweetly Sujatha got me hooked up to IV and sweetly said.. don't worry this is all that's going to hurt. Next thing you know you will be back here and wondering what happened. She couldn't be more right. I headed to the freezing OR and as i was being strapped on by many things i fell asleep. Next thing i wake up in the resting room slightly dizzy excited to see* b there waiting for me.For the next 2 hours i just took it easy with *B giving me sips of water every now and then. I was good to go in a few hours after i visited the bathroom and the doc and nurses  had seen to it that i was good to go. there was slight cramping and uneasiness the whole of the day but nothing super painful. I am on leave today as well. Thought i would take it easy! I deserve it.. to relax and rejuvenate

Mid cycle

It’s been 12-13 days since we started out IVF cycle. My one injection  a day  went up to 3 a day and if you look at my stomach it looks like a pick up truck rode over it. Shades of blue, pink, redness etc. We’ve been to the clinic practically every day for ultrasounds, tests, scans etc. the process is nerve-racking and difficult and I realise it’s as much of a mind game as it is a physical one. You need to believe in the greater picture… the vision and  feel it in every bone of your body. I’m scheduled for my retrieval or as they say in the IVF world ‘ pick up’ on Tuesday and I Reshma sister is coming home to give me my trigger shot at 10: 30 pm. I still have a long way in the journey .. My transfer, my hysteroscopy.. etc but I KNOW that this is my last round of injections with the trigger tonight. I believe.. I know that we will be blessed. More than anything I am so thankful for the effervescent Dr S who is with me every step of the way monitoring my follicles with more excitement than me. The wonder women/nurses sujatha,Bismillah and Reshma who administer all the injections, stuff and prepare me for scans with the quiet reassurance that it will all be worth it in the end.And of course the stud that B has been, holding my hand throughout all our appointments and doing impressions of things that make me smile and bringing in some fun with the phus phus and blums(our code words) . This process is stuff on couples emotionally andn physically exhausting .He’s my rock and I know someday when we look back at this when we are in bed with our son and daughter and scruffy pup we will look back on these days.. laugh and be thankful