Sunday, February 1, 2015

Mid cycle

It’s been 12-13 days since we started out IVF cycle. My one injection  a day  went up to 3 a day and if you look at my stomach it looks like a pick up truck rode over it. Shades of blue, pink, redness etc. We’ve been to the clinic practically every day for ultrasounds, tests, scans etc. the process is nerve-racking and difficult and I realise it’s as much of a mind game as it is a physical one. You need to believe in the greater picture… the vision and  feel it in every bone of your body. I’m scheduled for my retrieval or as they say in the IVF world ‘ pick up’ on Tuesday and I Reshma sister is coming home to give me my trigger shot at 10: 30 pm. I still have a long way in the journey .. My transfer, my hysteroscopy.. etc but I KNOW that this is my last round of injections with the trigger tonight. I believe.. I know that we will be blessed. More than anything I am so thankful for the effervescent Dr S who is with me every step of the way monitoring my follicles with more excitement than me. The wonder women/nurses sujatha,Bismillah and Reshma who administer all the injections, stuff and prepare me for scans with the quiet reassurance that it will all be worth it in the end.And of course the stud that B has been, holding my hand throughout all our appointments and doing impressions of things that make me smile and bringing in some fun with the phus phus and blums(our code words) . This process is stuff on couples emotionally andn physically exhausting .He’s my rock and I know someday when we look back at this when we are in bed with our son and daughter and scruffy pup we will look back on these days.. laugh and be thankful

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