Tuesday, May 19, 2015

And the result...

The dreaded 2 week wait dragged on. We sat at home pretty much, ate good nutritious home cooked food, watched funny mallu movies and took it slow. I was super confident and beaming most of the time. Of course i googled every tiny symptom i had but did not obsess over it. I was quite happy with the way everything had panned out and of myself. The day came.. unfortunately on a Sunday so we knew we would get the results only on Monday. I was beaming from ear to ear when Sujatha took my blood. I was calm, reassured until monday came! I kept messaging Dr sheetal. * B kept messaging me until the news came in.. on my phone It was negative. I had 7 people around me talking to me and i had to continue mundane conversation so i could gather myself and get out of there. 
I was devastated... i got out work and went home.And thankfully *B came home in a  few minutes  I wept inconsolably in B's arms. We don't know what happened and things like this make you realize nothing is in your control.  You can't do anything about it .. just lean on each other for support,to cry, to crib, to question.  I am not sure what the future holds for us now . But one thing I'm sure of I won't let it bog me down. I will get past it, move ahead (preferably with a smile!) to face whatever the future  has in store for us.

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